I’m a horrible Air Force wife, FYI. I’m a control freak, and thanks to the Air Force, I have very little control over my own life. Which makes me bitter. I’m also the biggest worrier you’ll ever meet in your life. I never worry about anything bad happening to Graham while he’s deployed. I worry about plane crashes on his way to a deployment. Which is unfortunate, because once he gets to wherever he’s going, I have this worry in the back of my head that we’ll make it through a six month deployment and die in a plane crash on the way home. I know I’m making all of this harder on myself, but I can’t help it. It’s where my mind instantly goes.
The constant worry & fear of something bad happening is why I have to stay constantly busy while he’s gone. I want to plan out my time so that the only time I’m sitting around doing nothing is while I’m Skyping with him. Other than that much too short pocket of time, I have to keep myself busy. And I know it’s going to be harder this time than it has been for previous deployments. For starters, we’re in an apartment and not a house. There are no home renovation projects to focus on like I did for the first one. The second deployment, Hermione was a puppy and needed a LOT of attention. We walked about 5-7 miles every night, which took up a big chunk of my time. She’ll be four in November, so she doesn’t have the energy level she used to, so she doesn’t demand as much. Although, I am still going to plan on walking her as much as I can.
G has been gone for a little over a week now. And I’ve been thinking about what I want to accomplish while we’re apart. Here’s what I’ve come up with… \Most of these things should help with the whole staying busy thing… Fingers crossed that this summer flies by!
1. Change up my hair. I’m thinking about either cutting it all off & going with a super short/pixie style cut, or growing it out and dying it purple (aubergine, technically). But we’ll see. As much as I want to dye my hair purple, the summer is a bad time to do it, since I plan on being out by the pool or at the beach for a lot of it. And if I do it in the fall, I’ll have purple hair for our Christmas card photos. So… We’ll see.
2. Successfully complete a Whole30. I started this two days after G left, which was probably a bad time, since I can’t console myself with wine & chocolate, but oh well. I don’t want to waste anytime achieving the goals I have set for this deployment. I’ve been considering this for over a year, and it’s time I do it.
3. Lose 30 lbs. This is always on my deployment bucket list. The first year, I lost 17. The next year, I lost 10. Unfortunately when Graham gets home, and the date nights commence, I always gain it back. Hopefully that won’t happen this time, and the next time he deploys I can leave this off of my bucket list. While I am hopeful I’ll lose a few pounds during the Whole30 (most of the people I know have lost between 8-10), I’m hoping that after the Whole30 I’ll crave sweets less, and make better food choices overall, which will make the losing 30 pounds easier.
4. Continue to be social. I’m an introvert by nature, so I have no problem being alone. But we’ve made good friends here, and I don’t want to retreat back into my shell while though G is gone. My goal is to do something social at least once a week.
5. Purge my closet of everything I will never wear again. I have so much crap, but wear the same things over and over. I need to seriously purge. And then go shopping & buy things I really like. I need to buy more grown up clothes that are suitable for a 30+ year old. It’s time to end the days of wearing nothing but jeans and t-shirts from Target & the Gap. This includes the lingerie drawer, as well. All I ever wear are sports bras. I need to fancy things up a bit. I’m sure there are nicer bras out there that are still comfortable.
6. Cultivate my own interests. I’m taking a photography class with my friend, Susan. I’m sure I’ll learn a lot in the class, but my main goal? To take my camera off of “P” mode once and for all! I’d also really like to take a sewing class. I have two sewing machines and don’t know how to use either of them. I’m not wanting to be a bad ass seamstress or anything, I just want to learn the basics… like how to thread the stupid bobbin.
7. Read the complete works of Jane Austen. I bought an anthology of her books about 5 years ago, and I’ve never gotten past page 7. I know Pride & Prejudice isn’t exactly beach reading, but oh well. I’d like to read at least one book every week, but finishing this one needs to happen.
8. Read, save recipes & ideas, and throw away all of the magazines I’ve been saving. I’m not sure how I ended up with subscriptions for Better Homes & Gardens, and Bon Appetit magazines, but I did. And I never read any of them, so I have about 25 magazines, still in their plastic wrappers, sitting in a closet. I found them a couple of weeks ago when I was reorganizing our junk room closet, and they just have to go.
9. SAVE MONEY. G and I usually save a good bit of money when he’s deployed. While he’s deployed, he makes a little bit extra, but we also save money from having the service on his cell phone turned off, not having to pay for gas for his car, not going out on dates every week, and only grocery shopping for one. We have debt to pay off, and we’re still going back and forth on whether or not to buy a house next year.